Wow, Now that my 'blogging' virginity has been taken, i'm not sure what to write. I want some readers but, I don't need a lot of them. I was told to write a journal and put my thoughts on paper but, with todays technology I figured I'd start a blog. So let's get to know me.... hmmmm? I'm not sure that I know me! I know the 'ME' I was once and I don't think I like her very much. First and Foremost I am a MOTHER and I have an amazing son. Sure all mothers think their kid is the best, cutest, most amazing kid in the whole wide world but, truly he is right up there with the best of them. I'm a little biased but, if you've met him he's awesome. I have a husband we've been together just a wee bit over 9 years and on June 11th we will be married for 3 years. When it became official I gained a step-son who is now 11 and he's another amazing kid. I must be lucky when it comes to kids or my husband must pick some pretty awesome women! No, there is no 'baby mama drama' It's complete opposite. I love my step-sons mother, shes an awesome woman with a heart of gold whom I admire. We get along very well. Anyway, I have a Father, Step-Mother and 2 baby sisters. One is 3 and the other is 1. I got to be an only child until I was 23 so i'm pretty lucky, although I'll never have the companionship of close knit siblings, I always have my friends. I no longer have a Mother, Well I do, she left this world far too young. DRUGS, yes I said that loud and clear DRUGS were the ultimate demise of the only mother I was given. For that reason alone I have a lot of issues with DRUGS and the CHAOS they cause to ones life. If I could make one person see through the haze that covers their eyes. I think I could get over the tremendous amount of anger that I hold in. So todays blog in the get-to-know-me section can be about that ugly word.
The meaning of Drug addiction according to wikipedia --
a condition characterized by an overwhelming desire to continue taking a drug to which one has become habituated through repeated consumption because it produces a particular effect, usually an alteration of mental status. Addiction is usually accompanied by a compulsion to obtain the drug, a tendency to increase the dose, a psychologic or physical dependence, and detrimental consequences for the individual and society. Common addictive drugs are barbiturates, alcohol, and morphine and other opioids, especially heroin, which has slightly greater euphorigenic properties than other opium derivatives.
Wow with that alone a HUGE definition makes you wonder why people don't step up and help others more often. Why they charge such ridiculous amounts at rehabs; ya know the place where the addict goes to get help to become sober. Insurances don't cover it but, yet they classify it as a disease. If you had cancer your medical insurance would cover everything from tests, to doctor appts, to treatment and ultimatley your death. Drug addicts with this disease never raised their hands and ASKED to be an addict. When they went through elementary school they never said "When I grow up I want to be a drug addict" So if they did not choose this addiction but, the addiction has taken over their life, then the question arises why is it so hard to get them the adequate help they need to recover. Speaking from experience, I've been down the road of addiction and I never asked to be pulled down that road and suckered into the horrific lifestyle but, I've been around addicts since I was merely 6 years old. Naturally I had to dabble in it and see why they did what they did. I enjoyed the high that I sometimes got. I hated the sickness that certain drugs caused and quite honestly I was scared as hell that I was going to die each and everytime I did anything. After months at outpatient treatment, counseling and teen addict group meetings, I knew that this certainly was not something I could continue and I just simply said "NO" to any invites and any sketchy places. I even transfered high schools just to get away. Other people are not so lucky. Windber, PA where I grew up lost a tremendous amount of students to drugs. It was even in people magazine ... click the link
Prescription for Death
I hate to end this when I was just getting into it but, I feel I must stop babbling and next time i'll tell you more about me and that I have more to me than the drugs that surronded me.
Life may be completley chaotic and I won't make it out ALIVE but, i'll make an impression while I'm here
-K
